Free at last

 I just had a very freeing thought:



I don't have to build my whole personality around unbelief, the way I did with belief.



It's still true that God is a lie, and a harmful one, and one that harmed me. But: I don't have to spend time and energy thinking about how wrong religion is, the way I used to spend time and energy thinking about how right religion was. I don't have to DO anything about unbelief, the way I had to do something about belief. 

I don't have to listen to podcasts about atheism with the same frequency and intensity that I had listening to sermons. Untrue beliefs need regular reinforcement, but an ABSENCE of untrue belief doesn't.

And I don't have to blog every few days about what those Christian assholes are fucking up this week. They still ARE fucking things up, and that DOES cause harm to all of us, but I don't have to spend all my time brooding on that. I don't have to spend all my time brooding about religion anymore, the way I did when I believed in it. Religion is like an abusive ex who isn't in my life anymore ... but I've still been seething for years about how badly she treated me. I don't HAVE to think about that bitch anymore, that's the whole point of breaking up with her.


I can spend that time and energy on literally ANYTHING else. I can learn a new skill, or I can do something fun, or productive, or pointless, or silly, or do nothing at all, and ENJOY that time.


My personality can be built around what it would have been built around if I'd been raised in a world without religion. It can be based on stuff I like instead of based on an obsession with the immorality of other people. It can just be about family and friends and music and food and gardening and literature and maybe some new thing I've never learned about before.


Thank godlessness almighty, free at last.

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